When I started my one-sided courtship with J.G., I sometimes wondered about their relationship with P and their other female mutuals. I’m trying to make this not sound like I was overcome with NLOG snydrome.) I guess that’s what happens when you engage in a counterproductive strategy of being a bit too “colorblind” for the sake of the other party’s comfort. I found that we… didn’t not talk to each other over the years, it appears.
#Jon tron time commando archive#
(Yes, before unfollowing them on Tumblr I did take a step back in time to scroll through their archive to around the time we became mutuals.
told me awhile ago that they wouldn’t shunt a compliment if it boosted their ego, so yeah), because I recall how they and this other girl (“P”) seemed to talk way more than I ever did with J.G. might have kind of played them (to be fair, J.G. either didn’t mind at all about how much these other female mutuals made it abundantly clear that they found them attractive on part of their Indianness, OR J.G. having other mutual female friends - most of whom were very open and very forward admirers of J.G. I didn’t want to add to that.Īlas, there was no shortage of J.G. Based on my own memory of our Tumblr friendship, they recounted plenty of times people made awkward situations out of them being native. Basically an attractive person is an attractive person no matter the race or ethnicity (and believe me there are plenty of “meh” looking people, including indigenous dudes the people mentioned above got to become actors for a reason).Įrgo, I tried to not go out of my way to make a big deal about J.G.’s ethnicity, and I didn’t want them to think I was only friends with them because of that. Sure, I thirsted - and continue to thirst - over a handful of native actors (I mainly like Michael Greyeyes in a DILF kind of way Adam Beach is still a-okay Dallas Goldtooth has a body type I like I use to like Martin Sensmeier but he’s friends with Chris Pratt and follows Jeff Bezos apparently so he’s out lol), but honestly I didn’t really regard it any differently than how I admire some Asian male actors/idols, or Scottish dudes, people from the African diaspora, and Italian women are pretty hot. as my friend who just happened to be a good-looking Native American person, no more and no less. is really good looking.” But before that, when I hadn’t caught feelings, I always regarded J.G. is definitely not bad looking NGL, when I first started catching feelings for them two years ago, it hit me then that, “huh. If I had to be completely honest, this along with our minor-but-not-in-that-way age difference (b/c society only looks down on age differences when the lady is older) was a reason why I kept us at arms length when we first started mutually following each other so many years ago. Entry #3: Is it weird I would have accepted being of only secondary/tertiary importance to them?
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